The phrase "am ever present" refers to being constantly available or being always present. The antonyms for this phrase could be "absent," "missing," or "unavailable." These words imply that the person or thing is not always there or not reliably present. Another antonym could be "sporadic," which suggests that the presence is irregular or happening at random intervals. Conversely, "intermittent" or "occasional" could be synonyms for this antonym since they suggest infrequent rather than continuous presence. Overall, the antonyms for "am ever present" convey the opposite meaning of constant availability and presence.